Wednesday, August 31, 2011

?Donde Esta Mi Trabajo?


Seriously… why does it seem as if everyone is working except me? I mean I know that isn’t the case (after many phone calls and social networking sites stating my fellow cohorts are still looking), but it definitely feels as if I’m being black-balled. I just want to improve the minds of couples and individuals. Then I think well maybe God is waiting for me to finally register my practice… since I keep prolonging that aspect of it. I mean I have business cards, savings acct and a website…what am I waiting for… right?! I’m scared (but don’t tell anyone), failure doesn’t smooth over well with me and so I’m always thinking about the best way to go about doing this. What that means is, I’m analyzing it to the fullest degree and then analyzing that. Welp! By the end of September I will have registered something and it’s in God’s hands from there. 

Wish me luck! 

~Adieu

Being mature enough to handle it …..

So I’m currently sitting at my house my boyfriend just got a phone call that caused him to rush out at 11:45pm to go to his son’s mom’s house. I don’t want to say I’m mad at the situation but I do wish I knew a little more about the situation. Like what’s the emergency, why is she calling you so late, why did you feel it was necessary to leave and not tell me what was wrong? Someone else might think I’m over thinking the situation or some may say I’m over reacting and I should be thankful I have a good man who not only has a good relationship with the mother of his children but also has a beautiful heart and will come when ever they need help…. But although I try to fight the feeling I’m still a chick and I know some times women (baby mamma’s)may over use their power to prove a point ,ie. “if I want your man I can get him” and they prove this by making up situation, saying the child is sick every other day , making family events that should include the father if they were together , having photo ops where they take pictures as a family even though….Ahhh

Am I being mean? I mean I know one time before we were and official couple he left me to go to her rescue because her house had been broken into and when she got there he was the first person she called. I mean why? Her parents lived here at that time and her dad is a retired still in shape army/navy man. I mean if I’m in trouble the first person I call is my mom and she lives 7 hrs away …. I just don’t know if I’m feeling insecure cause if that’s what this is I have never been given a reason the feel this way but if I’m justified in feeling this way then I need some answers cause I don’t like to be left in the dark about situations. I like to know and ask questions until I grasp the situation. But how do I ask these questions without feeling like I’m harassing him or condemning him? You know what I mean?

The Champ Out …